Thought: Pensive...

This picture taken in the jewish museum in Berlin gives me a thoughtful thinking... It's a very interesting picture that can make you think about what it can represent to you, to the world or to others. Nice shot i think...

Thought: How Can One Be So Naive and Pretensious All At The Same Time?

From what i hear in general, parents want the best for their children. They want them to be happy. That's great! But what happen when one IS happy and the parents try to break it to pieces? Can i get an answer to that? I probably would understand if say, the relationship is not working for... Say... 2months since it started, but what about those who have been together for 2,5 years? I mean, does that make sense?

Also, how Can One say something like ''Oh, that's nice you came to pick me up with the car.'' and the moment there is a fight, the sentence says something like that: ''don't think you can impress me by picking me up with the car of you know who!''
Does that make sense to you?

How can One's ego and image be So fat that what revolves around him is completely blocked by his ego? How Can an insult towards your beloved one make you change your mind? How Can it solve the problem at all?! How Can an assumption be made out of nothing that makes sense?

Yes, i won't deny that i Am talking about myself and my dad. I kind of need to put it down as i still wonder how one can be So cruel and hurtful wit his words and later on being capable of blaming me for not talking to him... (Again, does that make sense to you?)

Yes, i should have stayed home a bit more often before leaving. That's what triggered everything. Thus, i apologize on that one. Yet, in the other hand, things could have been so much easier and satisfying to everyone if i could have stayed at home WITH my partner of soon 3 years. Instead, my partner slept over one of my friend's place. Why? Cos i'm gay :-). Anyway, that's besides the point...

He claims that i will be alone when i'm older... But don't we all at the end?
If he thinks that i Am alone now, then what about him now? I think he's a very lonely guy who doesn't even have friends who WANT to spend time with him. Now i wonder why... Being the charmer, the 'intelligent scientist with big titles', the one making jokes to make people laugh so that he gets the attention from everyone... Yet, he still doesn't have any friends who would call him and ask him out for a walk, a drink, a swim or ANYthing. None. Thus, does the claim refer more to him or to me?

Issue: Does anything exist in Singapore?

On my way to work now, i am looking outside, watching the scenery passing by and wondering how much of this green land will still be there next year. I also looked at the LRT line, wondering if there was anything as strong as cement, but that looks a bit better than that.

Then i thought: cement doesn't stay that stable either. It gets old and starts cracking. What does the government do?
I thought, well, like a lot of things, it will just tear it down like anything else that is old and build on top of that.
Thus, i was thinking: does anything older than 10 years (or less) still exist? I mean, where i stay, i am LITERALLY surrounded by constructions of a 40storey building, a hotel, a new condo and from december onwards, the church next door will be teared down. So really, back to my question: does anything in Singapore stay alive/exists?

Those buildings have a history. People lived in it for years and created their own history. I just have this feeling or thought that the Singaporean government does not allow things or even people to exist, to let it create history and let it age on its own. I am not only talking about the gay community that is really non existant here, but also elder people seem to receive either no life or respect for their hard work through their lives. Why? Because they are still working when they're 70 and are supposed to rest.
It always says: "new education", "get more this and that". New new new. What about the old? You don't create the new out of nowhere. You create the new out of the old. So why eliminate the old? Why not make things better?

Use the old to learn from it and make it better, because that's how you learn to make things newer.

Thought: True?

I mean, seriously. Isn't it so that when one is being perfect that he/she is being IMperfect instead?

Just my 2cents...

In Memory of Mojito

Sigh... He died a week ago of unknown circumstances. He is now resting under a little tree facing Pierce Reservoir in Singapore.
Now he's back with his big brother Pancho who got missing a few months back.

We miss you both!
Muah!

My Two Hours Wait proof

Waiting at MOM is not easy. Here is the proof. My queue number was taken at 15:22h. It is now 17:20 and soon it's my turn... It's 949 now... What a suspense...:-P

Two Queens Party

Well, after having passed my driving license and received the permission to have a business, i figured i could have a celebration wit the peeps i love and care.

It is a very special party as i am still wondering about the 'girls' that consider themselves as butches. It is quite amazing how some of them really look like boys. I just wonder what can possibly go through their mind when they dress the way they do. Please, don't get me wrong. It's their choice and i accept it, but i just wonder and that's all.

Their sense of dressing is also so manly that it is hard for me sometimes to recognise one as a man or a woman.

The lesbian scene here in Singapore is very different from the one i know in Switzerland. It has more 'rules' more differences among themselves than what i could have imagined. It's just amazing.

But back to the fashion sense. You can actually figure out whether one is gay or not just by its fashion. Look at the big watch, the very low pants, the shirt either closed til the last button wit a tie or a t-shirt under the shirt, bling everywhere and let's not forget the mannerism.
It is very interesting to observe all this as one just can't imagine how all the above are very obvious.
Anyway... I'll continue enjoy the time. Am so high;-):-P

Issue: What's The Meaning of Clapping?

I'm in the MRT twaser my driving lesson and i was observing some people talking and laughing. This is when i wondered what was the meaning of clapping once when you laugh in a group.

Have you noticed that before? ;-) When you laugh loudly with friends and it's really funny, one seem to lean either back or forward and putting the hands together or clap it once.

Look at it carefully once... :-P

Waiting at immigration is fun...

Freezing and bored at the immigration is really fun... Ish... We really have nothing else to do but take stupid ugly pictures of ourselves... Sad, isn't it?...

Issue: What to do?

At this very moment i am at the MOM waiting for my boss in order to check on what to do about my work pass...

I must admit i am very scared of the outcome simply because i don't know what else to do to stay here in Singapore. I can say that my life here revolves around a permit for the past 6 years. It is actually pretty long.

I have been very anxious these past few days, thinking of what other possibilities i have to stay here. I just wonder right now. Wonder what's going to happen as i have absolutely no clue how my future will look like in exactly 2 days...

I am really scared... My heart beats really fast... Please, wish me luck. I really need it. I wanna stay here :-(

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